I thought I’ve been through a lot of falling
I thought I’ve been through a lot of failing
I thought I’ve been broken
I thought I’ve get through any kind of pain
But why I never learn?
Keep falling and falling again
Keep failing and failing
And why the pain is still there? It hurt even much more…
It’s like killing me softly…
Can feel my forehead beating fast…
Gas in my stomach felt so hot…
Is this the body reaction?
It’s my mind getting hurt, why the body is also reacting?
Trying to swallow and swallow…
But really can’t hold it inside…
I want to burst it out…
I want to vomit…
Wishing to throw out all the pain inside…
But even after I vomit, the pain is still there…
I know I will get through this eventually
I know time will heal
But when?
1 April 2015
Wish all of this is part of April Fool