Sorry for this mind cant stop thinking. Long enough i left my meditation and this mind is uncontrolable. Can’t even control the action. Thinking to sit few times, but the ass won’t move. Whose fault?
Always try my best to tolerate. To walk along with the mainstream. And keep the thinking inside.
Try to be the sky that blend well with the cloud, but i’m now the black cloud.
This logic and idealism i adore the most, seem unmatched with the heart. Which should be followed? Many times that i ignore the heart just to be realistic. The pain hurt so bad but the ego cure me well. Hmmm… not so well to be honest…
So now… when everything is realistic enough, why is this heart not able accept? The normal life i always dream of, seems not align with the heart. What’s going on?
If i start again from the beginning, will i still able to bear with another trial? If i keep on going and ignore the heart, am i planting the seed of pain to the future?
I’m now the black cloud… when will i rain?
You are not the black cloud but possible a darker cloud that has much to share. They way I see it you are raining and you don’t realize it. You splashed on me tonight. If you ever need someone to talk to late in the night if I am not awake let me direct you to my friend Belinda busymindthinking…..she will fill your heart with faith and love…she write beautiful poetry and is such a strong woman of faith….I’m sure she would love to hear from you….http://busymindthinking.com/
Blessings to you Michelle
Hi, thank you for dropping by, great mom :). And thanks for your recommended page. It is inspiring. Hope we can be friend.