Once in a while, i don’t know why, i could feel the sense of kinda what i like to call “mellow”. Kinda empty. Kinda feeling not right. Kinda flat. I don’t know. Sugi, my good friend, know it best 😛
This feeling mostly came when i sat down doing nothing, trying to enjoy my time. It suddenly arise. In the beginning my mind will travel all the way, thinking, then the sense of emptiness appear. I won’t be able to awake too soon as i will get lost n trap in the moment.
The feelings was not right, nor enjoyable, but i just can’t get out. It wasn’t that annoying as well. It was just it. So once i realize, i will try to watch how it comes n goes, not trying to ignore, not also trying to enjoy. Just trying to see as it is.
Then few songs will pass through my mind, some inspiration appear. This is what comes today:
“Do u feel cold n lost in desperation?
U build up hope, but failure all u’ve known
Remember all the sadness n frustation.
And let it go
Let it go”
Song by one of my favorite band Linkin Park.
Let go is all i need this time 😉
Kristin_chan